Sleuth // Shirogane Naoto (白鐘 直斗) (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
genderbinary) wrote2012-12-05 04:13 pm
genderbinary) wrote2012-12-05 04:13 pm
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Memory #30 - Significant Positive - Accepting her Shadow, obtaining her Persona.
Earned Day 199
Form: Five chocolate chip cookies. They taste pretty good though you might notice they taste a tiny bit burnt.
Shareable: 4/5
Shared with: N/A
Taken: Yes
Beginning to 5:45.
Learned
--Oh, this... must be after whatever happened in the laboratory.
--This is the Investigation Team discovering my sex. Ah.
--What do I mean by "everything", that is a little suspicious.
--And... there it is. My Shadow.
--Backstory: my parents died when I was young, which is how I came to be raised by Grampa.
--I didn't have any friends, so I spent most of my time reading detective novels, dreaming about the day when I would become a real detective.
--"When I grow up..." Ah.
--People don't like my assistance on casework because of my age; having a mere child best their intelligence is seen as demeaning. So I am looked down upon.
--I can hide my sex all I want, but in this scenario it only serves to reinforce my feelings of disassociation and loneliness; I should not have to pretend to be a man just to be respected in my field. If I do so, it is for my own comfort and identity.
--"The police department is a male-oriented society. If they had the slightest 'concrete' reason to look down on me, no one would need me anymore..."
--The last thing I want is to be of no use; to be thrown away and considered worthless.
--Ultimately, that is what the Shadow represents: fear of abandonment and isolation. What made it stronger was that Naoto pretended it never existed, creating a cycle of loneliness that she kept perpetuating.
--I'm not a man; I'm not a woman. I'm Detective Naoto Shirogane before either of those things. I can be both or I can be neither, but what's important is that I remain true to myself, and don't ignore my feelings.
--Oh... it's my Persona, Sukuna-Hikona.
--Note: I was the last individual to join the Investigation Team. Also traveling through the TV, whoooooa.
--They all saw my true self, and accepted me. Even if things change in how we interact, they all chose to be my friends regardless, and that is the important thing to me.
--w...whoozy @@
--But my recklessness and disregard for my own safety totally cracked this case wide open. well done me
--I think I have reached the point of understanding others that I can safely interpret Kanji's reaction as covering up his own worries. Thank you, Kanji.
--"Don't think that doing everything on your own is the adult thing to do!" :x :x MAN I COULD'VE USED THIS LESSON A WHILE AGO
--Went home with the help of Yukiko.
Memory Effects
+ 9000 Frands '^'
+ 5000 Conviction in goals
+ 8000 Boost in self-identity
+ 3000 Understanding
Form: Five chocolate chip cookies. They taste pretty good though you might notice they taste a tiny bit burnt.
Shareable: 4/5
Shared with: N/A
Taken: Yes
Beginning to 5:45.
Learned
--Oh, this... must be after whatever happened in the laboratory.
--This is the Investigation Team discovering my sex. Ah.
--What do I mean by "everything", that is a little suspicious.
--And... there it is. My Shadow.
--Backstory: my parents died when I was young, which is how I came to be raised by Grampa.
--I didn't have any friends, so I spent most of my time reading detective novels, dreaming about the day when I would become a real detective.
--"When I grow up..." Ah.
--People don't like my assistance on casework because of my age; having a mere child best their intelligence is seen as demeaning. So I am looked down upon.
--I can hide my sex all I want, but in this scenario it only serves to reinforce my feelings of disassociation and loneliness; I should not have to pretend to be a man just to be respected in my field. If I do so, it is for my own comfort and identity.
--"The police department is a male-oriented society. If they had the slightest 'concrete' reason to look down on me, no one would need me anymore..."
--The last thing I want is to be of no use; to be thrown away and considered worthless.
--Ultimately, that is what the Shadow represents: fear of abandonment and isolation. What made it stronger was that Naoto pretended it never existed, creating a cycle of loneliness that she kept perpetuating.
--I'm not a man; I'm not a woman. I'm Detective Naoto Shirogane before either of those things. I can be both or I can be neither, but what's important is that I remain true to myself, and don't ignore my feelings.
--Oh... it's my Persona, Sukuna-Hikona.
--Note: I was the last individual to join the Investigation Team. Also traveling through the TV, whoooooa.
--They all saw my true self, and accepted me. Even if things change in how we interact, they all chose to be my friends regardless, and that is the important thing to me.
--w...whoozy @@
--But my recklessness and disregard for my own safety totally cracked this case wide open. well done me
--I think I have reached the point of understanding others that I can safely interpret Kanji's reaction as covering up his own worries. Thank you, Kanji.
--"Don't think that doing everything on your own is the adult thing to do!" :x :x MAN I COULD'VE USED THIS LESSON A WHILE AGO
--Went home with the help of Yukiko.
Memory Effects
+ 9000 Frands '^'
+ 5000 Conviction in goals
+ 8000 Boost in self-identity
+ 3000 Understanding